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STUCK

from SUFFOCATE by Eli Davidson

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This song is about being frustrated and not being able to express it in any way to the person you love. You want so badly for them to be someone without their insecurities, bitterness, judgement, and overall negativity towards you, but your words seem to fall on deaf ears to the point of silence becoming the only option. Nothing gets through.
They give you an ultimatum, and you want so badly to be with them because you want your friend to stay, but you don't know how to express that your not able to fully feel the love you have for them because you're still held back by your past. Even though you're trying, and it's going away, it's doing so too slowly for them. So you force yourself through it.

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I can't find a way to let you know just what I'm thinking now
It's a fucking memory maze of walls I can't break down
All these lies that float around my head are never coming out
Cause I can't find a way to tell you what the hell I'm thinking now

Be still don't run after what I've said is done
Just hear my soul bare witness to this sorrow
Water fills your eyes but stiffness holds your lips in place
I fall right out of love before your hips start to shake

Our eyes meet one last time before I take our life
and bury it deep below the ashes of what used to be
You beg me for a sign but I can't say I want these lungs to breathe
the same air you've given me

Cause I can't find a way to let you know just what I'm thinking now
It's a fucking memory maze of walls I can't break down
All these lies that float around my head are never coming out
Cause I can't find a way to tell you what the hell I'm thinking now

You took my heart and drew a line in the sand
Said this or that and left me holding my hand
I couldn't help you see what your words did to me
I guess the blame falls on myself for never speaking my mind
There's no hope for us now I'm seeing everything you always let the light shine around

But you don't get a chance to say it's not what it seems
I just want you to go now get the fuck away
You don't see what I see poison sold as candy
Take a look in my eyes and tell me I'm not really alive

Cut out my tongue to feel the blood
I'm slowly dying from every reason I never said
Spill out my guts to taste the lies
I've told a hundred times over I never need closure
Show you my heart I'm bearing out
Melting off every conviction I never received from you
But in my eyes I feel the hate
I resent every word I've said sleeping until I can just wake up
Just wake up
Just wake up

Just wake up

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from SUFFOCATE, released August 2, 2018

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